Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Absent




Silver smoke blurring your vision
Noisy TV distracting your mind
Shallow books keeping you busy
Detached, isolated, standing apart

Unable to forgive or forget the past
Bitterness poisoning your feelings
Incapable of showing love
Absent from life, inaccessible
Unaware of your greatness

Master of pain and resent
Forever a victim you remain
Weeping past events   
Detesting life all the way   
For what you will never repent

Master of disguise
Never showing feelings
Always wearing your iron mask
Books and TV help you forget the life you hate
Smoking keeps your monsters away

Always longing for your deserting mum
For you always felt “not good enough”
Constantly grieving the only man you ever loved
For he was killed on your wedding day
Forever resenting the unwanted child
For whom you married the wrong guy

Master of revenge
An eye for an eye  
Always haunted by the past
The world has to endure your pain
No matter what

Motherhood couldn’t mend your shattered heart
For you stayed loyal to your acrimony
Eternal victim of your bitterness
Afraid of abandonment, deserting everybody


© Gabriela Abalo


"Ultimately, the source of happiness and joyfulness is within ourselves". Dalai Lama
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25 comments:

Brian Miller said...

dang. you describe a hard life...unwanted, never feeling like anything you do is right...easy to fall prey to that dark master...

Timoteo said...

The last line blew me away...what irony! This is first rate, Gabriela!

Steve said...

I think I was (briefly) married to this person. (Then there was that fatal tractor accident, when the tractor ran over her. . . again and again and again. . . well, the sheriff understood, anyway.)


Excellent crack-peek into modern alienation.

Desert Rose said...

a strike Gabriela! vivid description ..the words almost run in a chase..breathtaking!

Kirk Jusko said...

You've shed light on some very dark thoughts.

senderupwords said...

Nice One Shot Gabriela. The imagery through as Rose said was vividly detailed through your descriptions. Love and Light, Sender

Wine and Words said...

"Afraid of abandonment, deserting everybody"

Well...if that just ain't me, I don't know what is. Getting rid of the bitterness though :)

Cindybrown said...

I agree the last was excellent!

OJ Gonzalez-Cazares said...

Bitterness well described! and how it made me confirm that, if we let the dark feelings inside us grow, they will crush our will and take over our soul. Bravo!

Carrie Burtt said...

It is such a shame when one lives their life this way....you have described all the pain and bitterness amazingly Gabriela...a wonderful one shot! :-)

Myrna R. said...

Wow. Hard to absorb this. You write what reaches into the soul. Sad that there are some who feel what you portray. And maybe we all have felt it to some degree, otherwise how can we recognize the pain?

standing on my head said...

that photo is breathtaking! you hit us hard...

marousia said...

You have captured the very essence of the futility bitterness in this poem.

June_Butterfly said...

True facts of life.Sometimes it's hard to face some painful facts about ourselves.But I guess we all at one time or the other have experienced some of the words described here.Hits hard,but hits true.

Love it!!

Shashi said...

Dear Gabriela...
Stayed loyal to your acrimony.. very nice poem.. I liked it so much...

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Z Joya said...

bullseye:)

TALON said...

How heartbreaking...to live a life of resentment...unimaginable.

Powerful, Gabriela, and tragic, too.

Nick Rolynd said...

What a morose piece, but very good work! The richness with which you describe this person's resentful life is stunning!

dustus said...

You hit many emotions recalling the past with brutal honest. Nice write!

PattiKen said...

Wow, this is very powerful. You've shone a light into a bitter heart here. Seems the subject of my piece isn't the only poetic persona this week holding on to past transgressions.

Claudia said...

oh this is a hard life you describe - not only for the people around but also for the person who lives it..such destruction..moving and tight write gabriela

Mona said...

This is so true of most of us, and very sad fact of life. We always languish after what we don't have, and in the process miss enjoying what we have. Truly pathetic example of bad faith!

You portray it well!

Love the photos here!

Francisca said...

Many good turns of phrases here, Gabi. This kind of deep bitterness is hard for me to relate to, but I do see it around me - people married to their misery.

She said...

The last line hit me hard. Such a sad life, when we don't know that true joy comes from within (love the dalai lama quote)

great one shot!

Pete Marshall said...

i enjoyed this...very well written..thanks for sharing with one shot